I thought I would share something else with you all, I started another Blog in October last year (2009) it was called ‘Dear Elizabeth’ because it was going to my new diary but it didn’t really work out like that so I only entered 3 posts and then went back to pen and paper but I thought I would share those posts with you because they are from Jess, its me and like I said last time, I have missed me.
So here are the 3 posts -
WEDNESDAY, 14 OCTOBER 2009
Ok, so I have written a diary since I was 6 years old and I thought that this might just be the new version. I am not Elizabeth but I have always written to her, she is my closest friend. Well, that kind of sounds as if I have mental issues, I write to someone who doesn't exist, maybe thats true, but hey.
I live in the heart of London and I am loving every minute of it. Recently my life has completely changed and all for the better. Whoever said hard work doesn't pay off were lying, it worked for me. I got a job in London after years of going no where. I had actually nearly given up on myself. A long line of shit relationships and nothing to show for it but a few scar, a bunch of debt and a complete loss of faith in people.
Sounding like a sad case story but no, not anymore. Live is amazing now and I am loving every minute of it. New job, new career, new life. I must say that the people that never gave up on me have always been my family. I have three brothers and my mum and dad. They always held out a hand for me and I always pushed it away, thinking I knew better.
I should explain that this blog isn't really for anyone else. I am not really writing it for your benefit, maybe this time not even for Elizabeths, maybe this is finally going to be for my benefit. Sorry if that has just put whoever might read this off, I am simply being honest.
WEDNESDAY, 14 OCTOBER 2009
I am sitting here not feeling too hot to be honest. I have an ear infection and it is driving me a little demented. I have been surfing the net randomly and I checked out some blogs under my name and how unbelievably different we all are.
I am always amazed at why people do things, why people write blogs, or use twitter. I am not writing this for any real reason but I am sure that others have a deep seeded reason for it. Oh I should have maybe mentioned that I am not going to tell anyone I know about this blog, I think it would defeat the purpose of writing it.
Oh something random is lately after years and years of biting my nails I have stopped. They have now become the bane of my life because I spend so long attending to them. Rubbish huh.
That kind of leads me on to tell you a little more about me. I am not the girlyist of girls (I know making up the spelling as I go). I grew up with three boys so I think I can be excused. I love a lot of girly things but I can't stand RomCom's at the cinema (waste of money), I hate women that scream for no reason, I rarely cry, I like to booze, I am emotionally challenged and i have the attention span of a five year old (if you don't have eye contact I am not listening lol!).
I don't want this to turn into one of those profile pages where I say w**k things like, 'I enjoy socialising with friends, going for a few drinks and la dee da da...' Basically, if your up for life, fun to be around and never judge a book by its cover we'd get on fine. I get critisised a lot for not taking life seriously enough which I have learnt to take as a compliment. Screw those people who are so serious and grown up they miss all the special bits. I like rocks lol! When people go away I like them to bring me rocks from different places. I am not very materialistic. My over night bag consists of a spare pair of pant, a toothbrush and possibly another top, this over the years I have named the 'Tink Kit' he he he!
I'll be back in a bit
THURSDAY, 15 OCTOBER 2009
I definitely found out that self medicating with wine is not the way forward lol! My face still hurts and now I have the dull ache of a hangover. I did have fun last night though, my friend K came round I made him dinner and I drank a whole heep of wine.
Did I at any point mention that I am Scottish and naturally my favourite food is haggis neeps and tatties, which is awesome because it doesn't matter how ill you are you can always eat it. It is like baby food for adults; no chewing required.
I am actually called a toy Scot because my family are all English. I was born and brought up in Scotland and lived there until I was 22 years old. I love Scotland and miss it everyday but it is a life I can't have anymore, I need to always move forward and not look back. So easily said, not so easily done. My best friend M lives there still and I miss her so so so much, we still speak lots and when we're together it is like nothing has changed. We have been friends since we were about 12 years old. I have known her since I was about 6, we went to the same primary school. We are so different that is why were friends.
So hope you enjoy some pre blog ramblings.