Matching nails with pajama's

So, you know what drives me demented, I can't stand people who see you walking with a stick and instantly walk at you, 'Hey Dumb Ass That Is Not Helping Me', they flock to me like moths to a flame ( yes I did consider the flies round... but decided to be grown up and not use it).  Also people decide to walk so far up my  arse they end up scoping my feet and tripping me, that is not cool people.  They do make me laugh though, in a strange way, I am walking with a stick, every step is considered and induces pain and these tits can't walk down a street without making the worst decisions on the planet.  Thought process believed by Jess -  idiot pedestrian: 'Huh, lady with walking stick, slow and in pain...quick, quick, quick bee line for her Now, Now, Now' me: 'Move you idiot, I can't get out of your way and I have a stick that I am not afraid to use', idiot pedestrian: 'Tut, lady with bad legs did not move out of my way, that was annoying' me: 'My God you IDIOT there is only two of us on this pavement, why do you need all of it...hope you trip over'.  As you can see, I am secretly not a nice person but please people don't be an idiot when walking, if you see someone with a stick be considerate, they are not sporting it for fashion and I am sure if they could move quicker than they are.

I have also thought about an earlier post and decided I was in the wrong, I should have not told you that I did not like someone at work, it was unfair.  Ok, as I promised to tell the truth I am going to, I don't really like her but it has little to do with her and more to do with me, she is actually all right.  I have a silly inferior complex about people who did proper degree's at uni.  I have respect for most people with degree's and I am in some ways (more than some, a lot) jealous.  This is not because I wished I'd went to uni when I was younger but more of an admission that I am not good at life and ever since I was a kid exams have terrified me.  As you all know I am a gob shite (didn't hear it on radio 4 but I am in pain so bite me) I can talk myself in and out of anything but what I can't seem to get a handle on is believing in myself.  I am not going to make the same mistake as she did with me, I am going to try and be nice.  It is not her fault that I am self aware and intimidated in front of people with specialised degree's.  Projection is a bitch, and I need to deal with those feeling and get on with it.

I had a conversation this evening with one of my housemates about the research and advancement in stem cells.  I don’t get it folks, why are people trying to prevent the advancement in this field.  Just to put some perspective on this, here are the pro’s and con’s from www.experiment-resources.com/stem-cell-pros-and-cons.html  - 

Stem cell research can potentially help treating a range of medical problems. It could lead humanity closer to better treat and possibly cure a number of diseases:

• Parkinson’s Disease http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parkinson's_disease 
• Alzheimer’s Disease http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alzheimer's_disease 
• Heart Diseases, Stroke and Diabetes (Type 1) 

           http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heart_disease 

           http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stroke 

           http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabetes_mellitus 

• Birth Defects http://www.dad.info/kids/babies/birth-defects-and-other-conditions/ 
• Spinal Cord Injuries http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spinal_cord_injury 
• Replace or Repair Damaged Organs
• Reduced Risk of Transplantation (You could possibly get a copy of your own heart in a heart-transplantation in the future
• Stem cells may play a major role in cancer http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cancer 

Ask anyone who suffers from or is close to someone who suffers from these diseases if this is a bad idea

Better treatment of these diseases could also give significant social benefits for individuals and economic gains for society

Cons

• "We should not mess with human life."
• "Humans should not be trying to play God"
• Some argue that stem cell research in the far future can lead to knowledge on how to clone humans. It is hard to say whether this is true, but we have seen devastating consequences of other research-programs, even with good intentions, such as nuclear research.

These are not facts they are opinions

OK, so the red comments are my opinion.

I have to say that it is the Christian fundamentalists that are standing in the way of this research - http://www.mercatornet.com/articles/view/upsetting_the_stem_cell_applecart/ 

Why wouldn’t ‘God’ want us to live without pain and disease?  Why would he not want this if he made it possible?  Why give us the tools and then send his people in to prevent us?  He threw his own angels out of heaven for disagreeing with him about mankind and now he wants us to suffer?  

Would any of you put your fate in the hands of Islamic fundamentalists?  Why are we allowing all our fates to be in the hands of Christian fundamentalists?  Religious people are usually smart and make (reasonably) good decisions but we know, without question fundamentalists don’t so why would we allow them to ruin our chances?  I feel so strongly about this because they are preventing a cure for my disease being found.  They are condemning me and millions of others to a life of pain and many to death, simply because they have the opinion ‘We should not mess with human life."and "Humans should not be trying to play God".  I have opinions but they don’t mean others suffer, why is it ok for them to do this?  Why do these people have so much power?  Why am I so powerless?

I had to read a version of this to my big brother to ensure I didn’t offend anyone because that is not my goal here.  Like I have said I like religion, in actual fact it fascinates me but I am in pain, I know that my life is going to be restricted and worst of all there might be help out there for me that a group of people are standing in the way of.  The point about nucular  development is null in void in my opinion because humans create things to kill each other, they always have done, they always will do, maybe just for once we could come up with a plan to save us as well.  

Rant Stem Cell terminated.

I should share with you here how silly crazy I have gotten recently, I painted my nails the same colour as my pajama's today, that is how sad my existence is at the moment.  It is good in the fact that my mum always told me ‘No matter how bad things are, get up, do your hair, do your make-up and things won’t seem so bad’, you know something, as ever she is right.  I do this and it makes me feel better in myself, even if I am in my jammies and can’t do much I keep some self respect.  Thank you Mumma.

Anyway bet your bored of hearing me babble, whine and bitch so I am gong to sign off here and go and bug my peers on facebook.  Love you all.

xxxx