Uh oh more shops

So I make the confession, I am guilty of retail therapy.  Sorry!  I bought 3 books out today and a pair of boots

• All My Friends are Superheros
• What Every Body Is Saying
• How Not To Write A Novel

 The boots I bought are amazing, I am loving them.  They have a little heel, about 4cm and they appear to be quite comfortable as well but I need to try and wear them for a long period of time.  I bought them in Debenhams and it wasn't until I got them home I realised they were Evans boots (thats the big lady shop +sizes) I couldn't understand when I bought them why they were so wide at the top with space to stretch, now I do.  I usually have quite a problem with getting knee high boots that fit over my calves, not because they are particularly huge but they are definitely bigger than a size tens. 

Actually on the topic of sizes, I got told off the other day for talking about my size because The Man says he thinks I have dysmorphia, which is where you see yourself differently to how you actually look.  I am absolutely terrified of being 'a big girl'  now I am not going to rant, but you know the girls who get so big they can't walk, their stomachs hang down to their knees and they can not do activities.  I am terrified of people staring at me and thinking 'my God she is a whale'.  This might seem very self obsessed but when you have trouble moving it worries you.  Also with MS it makes you feel so unbelievably heavy, so I think it is easy to loose perspective.  Ok here is my stats, Height - 5'7, Weight 12st 3lb, Size 14/16.  I know you are probably thinking, 'Well if your worried about it Fatty, don't publish it' but I said I would be honest.  Don't get me wrong it makes me feel uncomfortable being 'honest' sometimes but then I remind myself that therapy has to be honest so there you go.  To make me feel a little better I have added the 'Fat Chart' and you will see I am in the over weight but haven't yet got my obese badge. 

I am very concious of my not becoming a tourist attraction blimp so as soon as I am active again I am loosing some weight.

I mentioned I was down earlier and it is something that I am very aware of at the moment so I have been looking at aways to get myself out of it.  Here are 'their' Top Ten Tips -

• Spend time in nature (makes me think of people taking off their clothes and running about, smiling already)
• List what you like about yourself (well, umm.....think I'm funny, or at least find myself funny)
• Read a good book (who qualifies it as 'good', I ain't reading the Bible folks, don't care what you say)
• Watch a funny movie or TV show (I AM IN ALL DAY, Jeremy Kyle is hysterical when I am feeling bad)
• Take a long hot bath (hmmmm, Monster wakens in the heat so gonna pass on this one)
• Listen to music (check, no smart comment, I love music)
• Take care of a few small tasks (he he he! anyone got any tasks I can borrow and look after)
• Play with a pet (last time I kicked the neighbours cat I got in trouble...only kidding)
• Write in your journal (bet you would all love more blog entries, you can hit them for this one)
• Do something spontaneous (I definitely plan on peeing my pants in Asda just to see my Mums face)

Well it worked folks I feel better already, told you I thought I was funny.