Sorry I didn't write yesterday, I went to see Tron Legacy with The Man and it was brilliant. We got back really late and I was so so tired. I haven't written earlier today because I don't have as much inspiration as I usually have, which I don't know why. Sometimes I am bursting with things to say but today I haven't at all. I thought I would tell you a little more about my Heel obsession. If you don't already know I can't wear heels because MS has made it nearly impossible, I have balance problems and I also have no feeling in my feet topped off with some drop foot, making walking anywhere an adventure but I am determined to someday walk in heels.
I currently own a grand total of 9 pairs of boots, 1 pair of shoes and 1 pair of flip flops. I am going to give you a run down of my footwear (yep I know how excited this makes you but I have nothing else to tell you today!) so here you go -
2 pairs of flat boots
Ugg like boots (that I wear only as slippers or in my wheelchair)
1 pair of snow boots
2 pairs of boots with 6cm heels
1 pair of boots with 7cm heels
1 pair of Timberland heeled boots with 8cm heels
1 pair of boots with 10cm heels (I can't balance on yet but I will)
1 pair of Irregular Choice shoes with 10cm heels (totally amazing shoes, definitely can't balance in them)
The comfiest boots to walk in the moment are the ones with 6cm heels, they lift my foot so that my drop foot doesn't bother me too much. Flat boots at the moment (hopefully just whilst I am still not too well) are really hard to walk in but ironically help with my balance but are really tough with the drop foot. The 7cm boots are comfy mostly and help me walk but standing up in them for too long is uncomfortable because I do have to concentrate quite hard on my drop foot and balance can be affected if I am tired. I hope to one day to be able to walk in my 10cm's, I think this has all come about because I feel like someone has told me that I will never walk in heels again, and that doesn't sit well with me.
It is weird isn't it that we go through life, believing we know ourselves, believing that we know what we like, who we like, where we like and all that stuff when in fact we don't, we are constantly changing we are constantly developing. For example I never wanted to be with anyone who went to university when I was younger, I wanted to be free from all that, free for conforming and now I am with The Man, who not only has a degree but got it from Oxford University and has a masters degree. I used to hate curry and wine but now I do, I used to hate wearing heels. I know that this heel thing is irrational but I just can't shake it.
Right I need to love you and leave you all just now because it is 11.47pm, and I promised I would not write late, sorry Daddy, promise I wasn't on Facebook.
Love to all