MonSter Child

My Daddy mentioned something to me yesterday which I think is quite true, my Blog posts have been kind of miserable lately.  I am finally on to a good thing and I am still whinging so apologies for that, I don't want you to think I am a misery guts.  I used to tell you about me visualising MonSter as if he were a small child, trying to get attention, well I just wanted you to know that I still do see him as that -

I think in my head he had grown in my mind from a small MonSter to an enormous presence in my life.  I had allowed him to completely consume my life but I am regaining some control again.

I feel as if someone has handed me another ticket to my favourite ride and I am desperate to board again. When I had a chance at life before I think I might have taken it for granted, I might have wasted the health that I might once have possessed, this time I plan to do it differently, this time, I plan to 'do it right'.  I am planning to grab this new life I have been given with both hands and love every second of it and being with The Man is a mighty good start, having the amazing friends and family that I do again is a pretty good place to start and also having a job and flat I love, all things considered I have a great life to rejoin.

I am absolutely love my new found freedom that Tysabri has given me, I have only made it this far with the love and support of all my family, friends and of course The Man.    I am now going to go enjoy some of The Man's company and BSG (Battlestar Galactica).

Signing out

Love to all 

Jess x