Twilight Zone

What a weird start to my day on Monday, an ex got in touch, someone who was in my life for a very very long time.  It was good to hear from him but I am not sure there is room in my life for our friendship now.  Although at times I miss him in the sense I see something and want to tell him about it, or I read a book I think he will like.  I don't actually miss him being in my life.  This is not the horrible ex, just to make that clear.  He is happily married and has a little boy now, I wish him all the best in life and it has been nice to hear that he and his family are well but that is where I am going to leave this one.  It has been a little like getting a message from my past and my life is now very different and is about moving forward, not looking back.

I had the doctors as well on Monday and I spoke to my MS nurse and the continence clinic.  What a lot of things to tell you all about.  Firstly the MS nurse, she is going to speak to my Neurologist and see if he will put me on Clonazepam to ease my leg spasms at night, I will see what he says, currently I am taking 1800mg of Gabapentin a day and 30 mg of Bacolfen.  I spoke to the Continence Nurse about looking into Botoxing my bladder, this will take away my urgency and give me complete control over peeing which will give me complete control of my life and hopefully will prevent me telling everyone about my toilet issues all the time, so you see I am doing this for you as much as for me (he he he!).  Finally I saw the doctor, Dr Dougall.  Every time I go to the doctors I go in with an enormous list, this time was no different, I brought up the meds for my spasming legs, I needed to get some micro enemas (I know but I have to tell you), I had to get ear drops as I have an infection in both my ears and finally I wanted to add some Umevate Cream to my prescription because I suffer from Eczema on my hands and back.  Successful on the whole.

When I left the doctors I walked around the corner to the bus stop but caught my foot and fell over.  It has been a while coming I think as I have decided to try and learn to walk with my walking sticks and have been braving it with just one stick which isn't really the smartest idea but I have to do it for my own peace of mind.  I didn't hurt myself but my pride was a little dented and my knee got a little bumped.  I got to work and did the rest of the day but my walking was a harder and my balance was not good either.

I took Tuesday  off and worked from home to see if I could shake this ear infection and let my walking improve.  Today I had a Psychology appointment so I used the day as a rest day.  I am going to see how I am tomorrow but all going well I will be in work.  I much prefer going into the office but it I am desperately trying to find the balance and not push it too much because I know if I do I risk relapsing and being off again which is just unbearable to think about.  I will be fine though, this time I am better at managing my condition.  Fingers crossed the ear infection passes soon.

Our new bed arrived today so I dismantled the old bed and The Man put up the new one.  It is lovely to have a bed that doesn't sound like it is falling apart and one that doesn't wobble every single time you move.  The new bed is a white metal with bed posts, so I feel like I am on the bed from Bedknobs and Broomsticks

                                    

We had Pancake Day last night round ours and it was lovely, there was 8 of us in total and it was a brilliant night.  I bought the ingredience for the crepes and everyone else brought their own variation of toppings and then we all shared so we had lots of lovely food and fun.

I have to go sleep now it is past my bed time.  Night night all, sleep tight xxxx
Loves
Jess xxxxxxx